Lovinnn!

Gosh i can just feel it! im in love with "him" and he claims hes in love with me! sometimes i wish we could just be alone and it never change! but im scared everything is going to change this month! will we stay this close? or will everything fall apart?

Idk again

I'm so glad that when your "thinking or tired" I mean nothing to you... I love crying myself to sleep and then not being able to sleep cause you where too tired to say I love you... Well great thanks for not caring... I thought I was safe when I let the wall around my heart down for you... I guess I may have been wrong...

Happy Thanksgiving! :) <3

Roller Coaster Ride

Life is like a freakin roller coaster! i am goin crazyy! but im talkin to someone special agin and another temtaion is back in my life hmmmm i like it but dont.... weirdd!!! <3 my friends and familyy!! IM READDYYYYY TO EATTT FOOD TOMOROO!!

Ugh FML

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amazing day! can it get any better!? yes....... but...... do i need it too? no wayyy! http://youtu.be/DU3X6043lF4

My rep...

My new rep= the pole girl....

BAHAHAHAHA love my story time at the sports banquet!!!!

Following my heartt!

Im following my heart.... lets see where it takes me!!

The "one"

I honestly feel like i found the "one" and i let him go... and i cant go back not agian... idk what to do or who to tell or anything... i take back everything.. i want our families issues to go away and i want us agian... and i cant believe i just said that! my heart is sooooooooooooooooo confused right now.. just when i think i could fall for someone else my feelings are still way too strong to do anything about it... i wanna go away and meet someone who will make me happy and have a good family life but i cant just leave... and no one here can do that to the standard i need. i cant stand this pain.... no no no no no no no no i cant even think about kissing or hugging or fallin for him agin... i cant handle this... i feel like later in life im going to regret letting you go.. i feel like this may be the reason y i cant completely forget about you. i never will be able to either hes my first love my first everything (for the most part) and i still see a future with him.. he dosent force me he never would and we rly where almost perfect for each other... but the treatment wasnt right.. and we had to force and sneek everything... i want to kno how he still feels and if he felt this too...

fallin...

feels weird possibly fallin agin.... emotional roller coaster.......... confused heart...

STATES!!

WE ARE GOING TO STATES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GREAT START TO A GOOD WEEKEND THAT I HAVE NEEDED ALL WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope

please dont do anything stupid! im worried about you i truley am! even if you dont believe it i love you like a brother your my true best friend! you can make it thru this! you deserved better from the beggining but you wouldnt listen to me! its their loss you can make it thru! i promise!

Change

So muchh for the calmed down thing! but everything is ok im letting things brush off my shoulders and livin my life to the fullest! its the only way i will keep myself from goin crazy... its ok that all in one moment things go from good to bad... but "I find God the most when everything is falling apart..." i dont know where i would be without my church to save me eveytime i fall...

Calm Waters

Well things have calmed down for me! thank goodness! but for everyone else around me not sooo much!! y cant life just be easy? im ready for everything to calm down!!! even tho i dont think thats possible! but i can always pray and hope right!?! well after last night i have learned venting helps SOOOO muchhh!!! soo who knows what will be up here now! butt anywayss life is finally becoming good agin! :)

Vent Sesh!

WTF im sick of this crap! why do i get blamed for stuff that i never did!!!! but you wont take blame for ANYTHING you do wrong of course not!!!! ughhhh i can even explain how POed i am right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and if my good reason is good enough for you think how i felt when u did that same crap to me! and on top of it i put up with soo much crap from you! yeah i know you have too but im done 2 years of trying im done! and you think it happened over night NO WAY this has been goin on for a couple of weeks but i dropped it cause i didnt want to change but forcing stuff isnt right in a relationship but i guess to you it is cause ur getting pissed at me over nothing!!! and its not like you had a good freakin reason for doin what you did either!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when i try to set things up or ask to do something and you dont listen you dont try THEN Y SHOULD I?!?!!? every single time something just happened to pop up rly! BS im done im not turnning back now! mabe we can still be friends if you would take a second to stop flippin at me and relize i did this for the best then mabe we can get around this and be friends but if not i hope you have a great life!

Hurt and Love

Everybody hurts just a little too much, Everybody hurts but its never enough, Its wonderful to fall, lets love and risk it all, even if it hurts a little too much. I'd rather love just a little too much.

done.

upset.. is an understatement about how i feel right now.............. im done... i dont know what to do anymore

life...

wow... can my life get any harder?
oh wait of course cause it will as soon as i have to tell someone i cant do something rly important... y cant life just work out and be a little easier.. it would really help...

FOF

FOF was inspiring!! i love Laney FCA!!

Life.....

Life is crazyy!! God has an interesting way of getting us thru each and everyday!

Tought decissions

Tough decissions make me follow God even more...

Courageous

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pkM-gDcmJeM&feature=player_detailpage
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Welcome!

First time blogging!! soo welcome!!! :)